May 3rd

My thoughts go out to a certain someone who is having his first and hopefully last surgery for strabismus tomorrow.   I don't know anyone personally who has had this surgery so I hope one day to be able to talk openly with him about his experience.  As I would love to be able to have someone who could relate. I'm praying for ya and Dr. C.

Doctor C. and my fellow "freaks of nature"

My local eye doctor came into the salon today and while her hair processes I've been known to chat with her.
 ( she said she doesnt' mind) Turns out her sister lives across the street from me.Such a small world. I told her about my recent pain development.  She found it interesting and puzzling. I told her she should be so glad she didn't do surgery on me as I think I've turned into, "that patient", meaning I think they find me high maintenance.  I don't want to be high maintenance. But I know I kind of am.  I don't want to be. Trust me! I'd like to just be fine and go away too!
I read an article on Shingles and ran that by her.  She lit up with that comment saying that could actually make sense.  A year and half ago I had shingles on the right side of my mid torso. It's possible that this nerve pain could be related to shingles.  She also explained a couple other things to me and repeated the fact, a couple of times that I don't follow the 'rules'.  She doesn't know I call myself the 'freak of nature.'
Pain was around 1 to 2 with little surges of pain that don't develop.  Just used ibup. no tramadol tonight.

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Finally

Ahhh,  today, so far, at 2:38p.m. no intense pain.  Two nights of Tramadol and it's calmed down - for now.  Yesterday was quite rough late in the day.  Probably a 5 on the pain scale.  I'm just sleepy now from the benedryl and pain med.  Let's hope it calms down now for a while.  6 days straight is long enough.  And I don't like that other people can see it.  Today - no comments that start with 'What's wrong with your eye"
I just want to enjoy my eyes. Just say no to pain.
11:50p.m Well I think my silly crease brush is aggravating my eye.  How silly, how could a little makeup brush trigger this much pain. I've noticed for quite some time it's tender when I put on my eyeshadow. Pain returned tonight but I didn't wait til it got too far gone.   I must go to bed as it's late and all my little meds have kicked in.  but, can I just say, I"M ITCHY!

Pain theories

 I spoke to the doctor tonight, unfortunately no great explanations. I'm quite frustrated but am going to try to just forget about it and stay busy.  This is the " freak of nature factor" There's nothing I can do about. Sometimes I forget that I'm a freak of nature, then things like this remind me. Nobody really knows why these random things happen they just do.  It would take a lot of pain for a long time for me to pursue medical help with this pain.  I have a feeling it has to do something with my Trigeminal nerve and  I can't worry about that, just pray the intense pain stays away.
4/27/10 I walk into work today and two different people asked what was wrong with my eye.  One said it was red below my eye the other said my top lid was droopy. They didn't even know what happened this weekend. Lovely. I know my brow feels heavy and it feels stiff under my eye but it didn't jump out at me at home.  I'm going back to the eye ectomy plan. Just kidding.  It's just that this eye/face pain is killing my buzz!  I am so happy with my eye results and so frustrated with this unexplained pain.
4/28 - got some pain relief last night with Tramadol. It just makes me itch.  Life's a trade off isn't it? Pain relief but itchy.  Great eyesight but pain...
My friend came over tonight - had no clue the pain I've been in and she says, What's wrong with your eye?