I had a great day today. Peaceful. I was home alone. Studied a lot, cleaned alot. Did a lot of laundry - so I got kind of caught up on things. Molly, my client/ cranial sacral therpist came to my house on a holiday to work on me.
I did have one really concerning thing happen, About 1p.m I showered and was getting ready for Molly to come, I was putting powder on my face with a big brush. Out of no where I had this fat blood vessel pop out on the side of my forehead like when my fingers or toes blow a blood vessel. I've never had this. It didn't hurt at first. Developed into a fat blood vessel that ran down my left side of my forehead then turned to a green line that went under my left eye. See, I am worried about it but I can't "go to the Doctor" about it, they will over react. It is probably nothing but looks definitely something. I had a mild ache around that area til 5 pm when I took two ibuprofen. Swollen factor lasted a couple hours.
My mom says I should call Dr. Halstrom tomorrow. He'll want to see me. I need to discuss getting a pain killer that I'm not mildly allergic too, anyway. UGH! This body of mine is expensive to live in.
not cool - this is the freak of nature at full function
Wednesday 9/8/10 - No pain today. No vein popping. I did a lot today, cleaned a house, volunteer work , and worked at the shop a bit. I still need to talk to Dr. Halstrom so I made an appointment for Friday - it's the soonest I can get in. I'll post after I speak to Dr. Halstrom.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Now, I'm just getting plain mad. It's one week today since 'the the first "strike" of sharp pain at the fair.
It won't leave my jaw. There's nothing to do about it. I don't know of any med that works for this pain. Well, with out terrible side effects.
There is a panicky desperate feeling that comes with this. If I was at the eye Dr. right now, I'd say, "okay, I'll go visit the pain clinic now"
9/5/10 - No pain today yet. The pain lasted through til about 2:30 p.m. yesterday. It ended like the fireworks at the State Fair. It went for my jaw then up to the eye muscle I had surgery on. Strangely I felt it right where I imagine my sup. obliq is attached to the eye. Makes NO SENSE!!!! That scared me. I was "this close" to a panic attack. But kept it together as there were too many people around as I was sitting in a auditorium with 1500 other people and I probably knew about 700 of them - not kidding. It's like when you get hit and you expect another hit to come, you're whole body flinches and you grit your teeth waiting for the next blow. That's not Fun I tell ya! Then it went away - magically.
Again, I did take 2 ibup. in the a.m then 4 at noon. But it really didn't seem to have an effect.
I love the part where when the pain is gone, it's like nothing ever happened. I made it all up.
It won't leave my jaw. There's nothing to do about it. I don't know of any med that works for this pain. Well, with out terrible side effects.
There is a panicky desperate feeling that comes with this. If I was at the eye Dr. right now, I'd say, "okay, I'll go visit the pain clinic now"
9/5/10 - No pain today yet. The pain lasted through til about 2:30 p.m. yesterday. It ended like the fireworks at the State Fair. It went for my jaw then up to the eye muscle I had surgery on. Strangely I felt it right where I imagine my sup. obliq is attached to the eye. Makes NO SENSE!!!! That scared me. I was "this close" to a panic attack. But kept it together as there were too many people around as I was sitting in a auditorium with 1500 other people and I probably knew about 700 of them - not kidding. It's like when you get hit and you expect another hit to come, you're whole body flinches and you grit your teeth waiting for the next blow. That's not Fun I tell ya! Then it went away - magically.
Again, I did take 2 ibup. in the a.m then 4 at noon. But it really didn't seem to have an effect.
I love the part where when the pain is gone, it's like nothing ever happened. I made it all up.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
jaw
Another stabbing incident today this time my rt. jaw. None of these pains drop me like a hot potato but I'm feeling it a lot lately. I'm afraid for some reason. Afraid of the pain getting worse. Been having nagging rt side nerve pain. It's all around my eye rt now, and my jaw and my neck hurts- pretty sure the cranial nerves don't go down the neck! What up? I'm a little worried. I don't like it anymore. I'm growing tired of it actually. Especially when I am in the middle of a great day,like when I was at the state fair going to my Brandi Carlile concert and it likes to hit me, like "oh no, don't forget! You have have something that could ruin any big event" or like today I was in this great explanation of "the anti aging cure" with two new employees and then - it stabs me out of the blue with no warning. I got a massage last night and the woman working around my head and face and neck and I was just thinking, "i'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared" Nothing happened last night but I was still scared. I felt it ache while she was working on it. But no stabs.
I don't feel like I can tell anyone, it's been so long since surgery, I should be all better, they won't understand and they'll just be worried. ( and if you are one of my friends and read this, I appreciate it but, Please don't bring it up to me when you see me. I don't wish to discuss it. I may be having a great day and don't want to think of it when I don't have to - thanks)
10p.m. - I'm done, I'm taking a dilaudid, 5 left now.
9/3/10- well, the dilaudid didn't go as I hoped. Made me itch like tramadol - tramadol is worse actually, but my beloved dilaudid worried me. A) didn't magically take a way the pain. B) I was awake a lot itching but then my breathing was surpressed and I can't pee. Lovely! But the worst was as I lay there it jumped to the left eye. See the fear is, if dilaudid won't kill the pain, what will? I know this answer, just wish it was a different answer. I'm not in bad pain now, rest does help the most for some reason. I haven't gotten enough sleep lately. Come on Comet! - alright, enough whining on to my typical Friday. 9 hours or work.
7p.m. I called Dr. Halstrom's office and left a message. As to what do I do if over the weekend this gets even worse? Cuz going to the ER is not an option, and they would just go and do crazy tests to say they don't know. I just need the pain relief that's all. They called back when I was working and said "oh you can come in and see him" UGH! I already saw him about this and he knows. They just needed to talk to him. Plus I have no time to come in. I worked all day. I did have a one hour break and ran to the chiro. My guy wasnt in so I went to someone else. Just got adjusted. She didn't know how to do the TN acupuncture Brent does around the orbital bone.
I did have a couple hours with no pain but now it's back, And what's with the Jaw??? That really smarts! It's back on the right at least. I hate it on the left because it has no reason to flare up. I need to sleep good tonight. I have a big seminar tomorrow.
I don't feel like I can tell anyone, it's been so long since surgery, I should be all better, they won't understand and they'll just be worried. ( and if you are one of my friends and read this, I appreciate it but, Please don't bring it up to me when you see me. I don't wish to discuss it. I may be having a great day and don't want to think of it when I don't have to - thanks)
10p.m. - I'm done, I'm taking a dilaudid, 5 left now.
9/3/10- well, the dilaudid didn't go as I hoped. Made me itch like tramadol - tramadol is worse actually, but my beloved dilaudid worried me. A) didn't magically take a way the pain. B) I was awake a lot itching but then my breathing was surpressed and I can't pee. Lovely! But the worst was as I lay there it jumped to the left eye. See the fear is, if dilaudid won't kill the pain, what will? I know this answer, just wish it was a different answer. I'm not in bad pain now, rest does help the most for some reason. I haven't gotten enough sleep lately. Come on Comet! - alright, enough whining on to my typical Friday. 9 hours or work.
7p.m. I called Dr. Halstrom's office and left a message. As to what do I do if over the weekend this gets even worse? Cuz going to the ER is not an option, and they would just go and do crazy tests to say they don't know. I just need the pain relief that's all. They called back when I was working and said "oh you can come in and see him" UGH! I already saw him about this and he knows. They just needed to talk to him. Plus I have no time to come in. I worked all day. I did have a one hour break and ran to the chiro. My guy wasnt in so I went to someone else. Just got adjusted. She didn't know how to do the TN acupuncture Brent does around the orbital bone.
I did have a couple hours with no pain but now it's back, And what's with the Jaw??? That really smarts! It's back on the right at least. I hate it on the left because it has no reason to flare up. I need to sleep good tonight. I have a big seminar tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
1 yr questions
I'm starting to think of questions for Oct.'s one yr appointment. Usually, I just jot them down on paper and bring it to the apt. But I usually loose the dumb piece of paper. So I think I'll enter the questions here on this post and the day before my apt. I'll write them down and put them in my purse. Pretty smart huh?
1. My eye is slightly hypertropic - is it possible to go from diplopia to amplyopia? If it is, how do you know when your not seeing out your one eye? or do you just know?
2. Why did I have to have so many surgeries? I keep coming back to this one.
3. Do you think the sup. obliq. would stretch out and relax and I'd need another surgery?
4. Can I get a complimentary blepheroplasty if I have to have another? Ha Ha Ha
5. How often do I have to get my eyes checked for normal health checkups, and where should I go for that?
6. Infra orbital nerve question - To hard to write.
7. pain issues - fear of not having good pain relief, feel allergic to Tramadol, dilaudid, codeine
1. My eye is slightly hypertropic - is it possible to go from diplopia to amplyopia? If it is, how do you know when your not seeing out your one eye? or do you just know?
2. Why did I have to have so many surgeries? I keep coming back to this one.
3. Do you think the sup. obliq. would stretch out and relax and I'd need another surgery?
4. Can I get a complimentary blepheroplasty if I have to have another? Ha Ha Ha
5. How often do I have to get my eyes checked for normal health checkups, and where should I go for that?
6. Infra orbital nerve question - To hard to write.
7. pain issues - fear of not having good pain relief, feel allergic to Tramadol, dilaudid, codeine
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