No pain.  It feels good.  I hope it's done now.  Tweezing was good today, like I never had problems with it. I want all my eye woes to be gone.  I want to never have to deal with this again. Is that too much to ask?   If I ever have to have any more 'procedures' on my eyes I really do want the comp. blepheroplasty to go with it. It's only fair.  I think I aged 10 years this year. I even found my first four gray hairs about a month ago.  Mortifying! My face looks like it's going to slide off my skull.  It's lovely. :0  Okay, maybe I should go to bed cuz Lord knows I need my beauty rest.
Did I mention I have no pain?

Worst is over. I think...

I feel the worst is over.  For now.  I've felt this a few times before only to be surprised with an out of the blue pain attack. However, yesterday, I don't remember what I was doing,  I consciously new in my heart that I won't be in pain forever.  I know the pain I have had has to be related somehow to the surgery.  And I know it somehow has to be related to how exhausted I was this last time I had such bad pain.
That being said yesterday morning I woke to stronger sup. obliq. pain in my rt eye which did escalate to probably a 4.  It turns into the whole eye quadrant pain then traces to above my ear and even down to my Jaw.  But I just took 3 ibuprofen and drank some really strong delicious coffee and with in an hour it was pretty much gone.  My eye felt weak the rest of the day and again I had more trouble tweezing at work. But no pain.
I am happy to report at this time I have no Jabs of pain!  The constant Jabbing Jabbing Jabbing is really breaking up.  I think the acupuncture is really helping a lot! Plus Dr. Brent told me where to stuff my finger when the jabs start and it does help.  It's sore but it does help the pain dissipate.  So we are moving in the right direction.  Even if I have these strong pain episodes if I get these breaks in between like I've been getting I can handle it.  It's that constant eye ache that doesn't let me move on and just enjoy my new outlook.
So today it's good!  I'm going to go out for a walk now and enjoy it!

7 months now

It's been over 7 months now since my surgery. On the right is our little Elijah. He was born the day of my surgery. He is my marker. Little stinker, he was two weeks late and ended up arriving on the day I was scheduled for surgery, so I didn't get to see him be born.  But how could I be mad at that sweet little smile.  I feel this little connection to him, he and I had a new beginning on the same day Oct. 20th. Only his is a bit more monumental than mine. :)
The past week I'm feeling more and more at peace with things.  It's hard to describe.  There's been so much more psychology with this surgery than I could ever imagine. The past is the past, I know that.  I'll never really have peace with the Egghead section of my eye journey.  Dr. H did  much to restore my faith in Dr's. and give me back some hope that my health is not always a lost cause. He was about the polar opposite of Dr. Egghead   I realize my eye troubles did affect me greatly, I just stuffed it down really really well. That's what was most troubling about the past 7 months.  I hadn't dealt at all with what happened years ago and how terrified I was.  I think if Egghead had been more congenial and communicated with me, even if I had the same surgical outcome,  I wouldn't have had all of this emotional baggage to deal with and work through this go around.  When I'm not in pain I don't worry so much about the future of my eyes.  Today I was seeing double some.  Mostly when I was laying on my bed watching TV, and I was tiliting a lot at this seminar this weekend,  but because I'm not in pain it's not too upsetting. Put pain  with double vision and then I worry.  Pain clouds your thinking and good judgement.
I just wanted to post that I'm feeling good about things. Even though I was tilted today and saw double I realized if it came back I could deal with it. If it comes back it will take years anyway to get that bad again.
Double vision is not my fear.  Surgery to fix double vision then having surgery go bad - that is my worst fear.
For now, that is not even on the horizon so I'm not going to worry about it.  I just need the pain to stay away so I can move on more completely.

Observation

Today while sitting in a crowd of 1700 people. I noticed why I still tilt left.  I can see further to the left when I tilt.  When I hold my head straight I see only the 10 % past center that the tests show.  No biggy, but interesting.
I got more acupuncture yesterday.  It does work for me. Doesn't cure it but gives me a break for the stronger pain.  My highest pain level this week was probably a 3 which is tolerable.  I'm grateful.